Twenty O Nine.
Broke Me.


It brought me more pain than happiness.
How being sad was a routine every single day.
It made me forget what Happiness really felt like.



How the ability of others were possible to tear apart my insides
to either keep me running forward or inevitably, crash me to the bottom.



Making new friends but also losing some.
How the glory of friendship could be destroyed.

Changed Loyalties.
How one could believe in unrelated strangers,
or should I clearly even say, 3rd degree friends,
rather than your own friend.
Lies. Betrayal. Denial.



09 also saw how I made mistakes and paid heavily for it.
But I know all the shit I survived and beat out of,
was what I needed to grow, someway.

—-


To all the precious people I’ve lost, I wish you nothing but the Best.


And the beautiful and important ones who kept me going,
believed in me and pushed me through tiring and hard times.
Thank you so much, I am extremely grateful for each one of you.



Knowing better now that,
when challenges in life hit you far beyond your own power.
Pain forces you to accept, wake up and wisen up.

—-


Lastly,
To the most important one in my life.
My Saviour, Messiah, Redeemer.



Throughout this year,
You yielded me with nothing except love.
You took away my Fear and gave me Hope.
You brought me through times of despair I never
thought I would be able to come out of.



Thank you for everything I’ve been bless with.
Thank you also for blessing me with things I do not see.


and its because of you,
every single day, I stand only by your Grace.

—-


Through all the hard times we survived in 09.
Twenty Ten. Here we Roll.